Decisions....

i feel so sad now coz i broke up with my bf....... hes expecting a lot....i like him and i know he loves me.....but...I CANT DO WHAT HE WANTS ME TO DO/BE....specially i just got out from rehab.....its like.....u know the feeling its hard to go back but .....FUCK. FYI i was an alcoholic, drug dependent (E, Coke, name it but never tried the ice). I know that im ok now compare before.....but of course cant say goodbye to yesterday  still trying and do what im doing before.....and he cant understand that now.....I KNOW WHAT IS ENOUGH AND HOW TO CONTROL NOW (thats the difference). u know.....il never be the same....God... help me hope...what i did was right.....he wanted to work things out....and i cant think right now....im such a numb